Time does not pass in vain, and each day leaves its mark on us, even if I want to ignore it I cannot, my hair yells at me where my gray hair stands out, which they are not many compared to those of my friends, they are more of the that I would like to have, but it is not that I dislike them too much, what happens is that my expectation was different.
My maternal grandmother died at the age of 99, and even though she had very few gray hairs, her hair never turned too gray.
My mom is 64 years old, and she has practically no gray hair.
So, I who saw myself in my mother's mirror, came to think that she wouldn't have many gray hairs either, because it turns out that I have more gray hairs than my mother and I'm only 44 years old. Ha ha ha! Ha ha ha!
Time has not passed in vain for me, my body also tells me...
When I was young, I could dance all night without stopping, even with very high heels, for some people it was surprising to see my resistance, it is that if there was music I had to dance, Hahaha!
Well, now I can't dance as much, I get tired, not to mention wearing very high shoes, I have to sit down.
My attitudes have also changed over time.
To cite an example, in the urbanization where I live we have cylinders with domestic gas to supply the buildings, and despite the fact that recharging has been canceled for several weeks, the gas company has not supplied, and on Sunday early afternoon hours the gas ran out.
I looked for the small electric stove, but it doesn't work, of the two burners it has, one got lukewarm and the other didn't even get hot. So I went to the nearby supermarket, they've been selling appliances there for a while now, what a joy they had a kitchen, so I took one and went straight to cancel.
When I'm at the checkout, I caught myself talking to the guy who charges, telling him about my misfortune with the gas and the old electric stove, and I thought: these are my mom's things!
I had always wondered: why does my mom have to explain to a stranger about something that is totally foreign to him?
Well, I just discovered that I do too, and it's not that I feel the need to explain, it's that I don't think I have many opportunities to talk to adults, since I spend the day with two small children and a dog. One less existential question. Ha ha ha!
My thoughts have also been shaped over time.
I have become more reflective, it is as if I were looking at the same things as before but with another filter, the filter of maturity. Now I am more focused on living than just staying alive.
I look at my little children, I hug and kiss them, I do it in a conscious way, I don't want to forget that childhood is a stage of life that runs fast, I don't want to miss it, I want to treasure these moments in my mind and my heart, and of course I also take photos and videos of them.
I also live differently, now I live more grateful, over the years I realize that everything is grace, all I have that I haven't tried hard to get is grace, nothing is by default. That is why every day I thank God for everything he has given me, and for the blessings that are yet to come into my life.
For all of the above, I want to express that I embrace my silver signs with all my love because they are part of the my best stage, my best years.