Lately, well, maybe not even lately it seems that I get to deal with irreversible decisions.
Valensia - 1997
It is strange how life drives you in a certain direction. It starts spoonfeeding you little bites. As if it tries to make you feel you have a choice. And we do, we do have a choice...but as long as we don´t make the right choice we´ll keep experiencing windows closing and doors opening.
The universe has a plan, or at least it tries to make me feel like it is planning something.
In my case, it looks like it´s moving me to financial independence, and I think I know why.
It started with pushing me down hard, and hard is a couple of thousand hard. My ex messed up with paying taxes on her disability benefits during our marriage, as she was incorrectly advised. Hence, no bad intentions, this time.
So why is that my problem, because life was out to get me and as it happened during our marriage I was financially responsible as well.
To make it worse, I was the only one of us that ever paid taxes and therefore the one that received the tax deferral. Which made it very easy for her to leave it like that and by doing so put it on me.
Guess that is how life wanted it to be. Of course, this happened right after I signed the lease for a house I was just able to afford. Just able, but now?
Now, that house might have been a bridge too far. At the same time, it pushed me to make those changes the universe was aiming at.
For the first time in my life, I had to ask for a certain salary, not accepting or discussing what was offered.
It drove me to ensure I did not have any expenses that were not absolutely necessary.
Basically, I finally got my poo together. Getting it together did more than pay the debt, I ended up with savings for the first time in my life.
Pink Floyd - Coming Back To Life
It´s not the style of the universe to stop there, as soon as things go too well it´s time for the next test.
The lease on the house was for three years, the tax came in the first year, was solved in 2 years, and that gave me one year to start playing around with a little crypto investment.
That might or might not have been in line with what the universe wanted from me, anyway, I got pushed into making the next step as my lease did not get extended and I had three months to find a new roof above my head.
This caused me to do something I never imagined I would do. I met this guy who was in real estate and we came up with the best option to start getting independent financially.
Buy what you can afford NOW don´t rent anymore.
There was never a better time to get a mortgage and I was probably one of the last people that bought an apartment before interest rates started rising.
The universe made me do it.
Laibach - Across the Universe
That was six months ago and now life thought it would be a good time to try me again. I´ve been reading a lot about the current job market, the lack of employees and the world of opportunities.
I have colleagues leaving left and right, not because they got fired, because they got hired.
I´ve been with this company for 10 years and for the first time in ten years I was thinking about leaving, inspired by the messages life had sent me.
Now last weekend my former manager contacted me, we are having a call tomorrow. It feels like I get a choice. I can accept or decline, but deep inside I know it´s just the next step in this series of Rubicons called life.
VNV Nation - Rubicon
This post was inspired by the title of this last song and the fact I loved the word but did not have a clue what it meant.
Rubicon, A limit that when passed or exceeded permits of no return and typically results in irrevocable commitment.
Thanks for the read, have a lovely rest of your day, and stay tuned, I am sure I will soon come up with another song-inspired story.