I've been under a lot of stress lately. Probably caused by overthinking a lof things too much.
Just the other day, I've seen discussions about depression after watching a certain anime episode. The discussions I saw convinced me to finally go see a therapist. (Imagine Youtube Comments actually inspiring something useful.)
This isn't the first time I go see a therapist. I used to see one between 2015-2019 and I've been better since, even if I regressed a bit by now...
I told the therapist about my feelings recently. I almost summarized all of my life to him. (It took a long time.) I unloaded everything that was bottled up in my heart. I cried so much during it. I usually don't cry in front of strangers.
The therapist listened and told me, "I understand," "You'll be okay," and "Don't be afraid." He also told me my problems are fixable, and gave me some medicines.
He didn't give me any advice. At least in terms of "do this" and "do that." Instead, he gave me some medications. He told me how to take them for a month, then I'll have to see him again.
I'm familiar with the first medicine I was given. I don't know the exact effect, but it made me sleep 5+ more than usual whenever I took it before. Another one of the medicines I was given this time, I was told is for Depression.
If you asked me if I had depression before going to the therapist, I wouldn't be sure. Depression used to tire me too quickly, but I was functional enough these days. It turns out I was really dealing with it.
What do you think?
Today is my second-day taking medicine. my whole body feels weak and sleepy. This happened to me before, so I'm not worried, but I don't have the energy to do most things. It's probably my body regulating itself.
My mental state is much more stable, I don't have as much of negative thoughts and I'm less in autopilot mode right now. So I guess it's a good thing.
I hope you look forward to what I post next, especially after I fully recover. For now, you can check my "Where to Start?" Article and tell me about your thoughts. If you want to help support me financially, buy any of these NFTs.
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