Do you know that feeling, that you have to do something.....but can´t quite remember what?
This story is just that.
I remember being told to write it but I can´t remember what I was supposed to tell you. What I do know is that everything I am going to tell you really happened, even though it may unbelievable sometimes.
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Chapter Epilogue
As Jim said; "This is the end, my only friend the End."
But there are a few knots I want to tie up before I leave you for several years. The most important one of course is, what´s next?
Next is the bloodline, and while doing my research I found there are fanatics who still have things to prove about their hemoglobin heritage.
I just want to tell you that for me it was just a fun fact, I don't dwell on the past I am looking forward. Forward would be the Refugio and my bloodline.
My firstborn is almost an adult, and in many cultures already is one. For all my ex-wife and I have done wrong, he is making it right, and if he turns out to be the Blue Turban I totally get that.
For me when I hear that I should protect the bloodline, I hear we need more blood. I hinted at this some chapters ago, I would not be surprised if I will leave some more DNA wandering this world.
Yella is very happily willing and I myself would like to see if I learned (a little) from my mistakes. I really hope I did, I really would love to do it differently, less impulsive, less stressed, more living in the moment, and enjoying every second of bliss.
**Will that Bliss be Little Feet? **
I don´t think I will ever know for sure if he or she loves chocolate and has an imaginary friend called America that might be a clue. Other than that, Que Sera, Sera.
Will this Bliss be the Blue Turban, will the visions that were shared in the TGV relate to this unborn and not to Kyrian?
In life, very few have all the answers, and having them all would take away the joy of being blissfully ignorant. The answers I do have relate to being an even better father than I have been so far.
Kyrian grew up on the Cortijo, far away from the white noise of modern life. I think it made him grow up in a very stable and controlled environment. Enough challenges, but with fewer worldly distractions.
I hope to provide something similar to this bliss, something similar that could very well come in the shape of the Refugio. So I will need to learn to build a beautiful place, not stress about it, and enjoy many magnificent moments together with the bliss and its mom.
Knots to tie up
There are two little things you might want to know, that did not make it into the current version. First of all, after seeing three phycologists the last one was able to conclude that I did not have any clearly identifiable form of autism.
Secondly, the boy toy my ex left with was clearly smarter than his predecessors. Well smarter or weaker. This time it was not her but him that got out, he got out after four years with her and it sounded like he was burned out.
Are you for real?
If anyone will ever ask, did that all really happen....the answer is a plain and simple yes. No matter how unbelievable it sounded, I did not write one untrue word.
Ah . . . just one more thing
There was one more prediction, or peek at the future I was given:
When I was 16 I had three life goals;
work in a Dutch Coffeeshop, become a DJ, and write a best seller.
I completed two out of three and I am not in a hurry with the third as it might be the end of me.....but;
They told me that I would do it. They did not say if I would be dead or alive when it happened btw.
The book would be called "Voorzienigheid", basically meaning that things evolve exactly as they should without being planned. I guess in English it would be Providential
If you enjoyed this story so far I am very sorry to say that clicking the next button will not fast-forward you into the future. This Button will probably need a couple of years to get activated, but if things play out like I was told it would, there will be a new chapter floating around on my path.
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