Dear Steemians,
I have never thought of me becoming a bikini model, I also never thought of I will be in the modelling and photo shooting industry.
When I was in my high school, I heard conversation from the boys on how they comment on those girls around them. I can see the way they stare at ladies who dress sexily was as though their eyes are striping them right away.
There was once I heard a comment from a guy who tell his friends when certain part of the girls being exposed: “If a girl dare to exposed herself, I dare to watch and enjoy, she did it just to get attention and she wants it.” Since then I thought of be as conservative as possible. Whenever I went swimming, I would only wear a one-piece swimwear. I wouldn’t want to be a bitch in front of those guys.
So what changed me?
It was all because when I stay conservative, I was not able to portray my confidence and I had self esteem. I got rejected many times when I went for casting in the very beginning of my modelling journey. Hence when I read through some self love and self help books, I learn to love myself so much that I begin to appreciate each and every part of my body, my appearance and even my behavior.
Self love is the greatest level of love. I begin learning that I do not have to please everyone. The reason why we care so much if other can accept us or not is because sometimes we can’t even accept ourselves for certain way of how we show up in front of others. When I am able to accept the I am looking good in the way I present myself, what others think of me become obsolete.
I am actually proud when I first wore a bikini, when I was 18. Just be yourself and great things would happen to you.