I am thinking this is a reintroduction post. After I had backed off writing here due to some paranormal interference I was experiencing in recent months with almost every internet connection I had, including Facebook.
Here is the astrological transit chart for today in my region of the world - that is, Denver Colorado. Note the amazing LEVEL blue triangle! That is a sign or good omen for me, as it matches my own natal birthchart. Triangles are DOORWAYS. New Beginnings in a sense. So it seemed to be a sign and I was contemplating it anyway, with yesterday's post. A new start and not giving up on public writing.
Here is my natal birthchart: So you see what I am talking about. TWO overlapping triangles.
Two doorways? No or yes, but two DIMENSIONS of time-space. Did you catch what I attempted to explain yesterday about New Earth and Old Earth and me having a foot in both worlds? P.s. ... that 'having a foot in two worlds' is a trait for the sign of Aquarius, the sign of my Moon.
Tying the triangles together, or, adding more information to a post that feels something like a short autobiography. This photo: it was my first recognizable 'contact' with ET. Although, after this one happened which was much like an awakening of some part of me that had been asleep... looking back I had had other contact experiences. Quite a few, actually. Some of which I found photographic evidence for and some recalled from childhood.
The story behind that photograph. It was 1999. My youngest son was new to the family ... I think he was about three months old when I took this photograph. I took it from the back yard of my house in Whitefish, Montana in early summer. I puzzled and puzzled over this photograph for years. It seemed to me that there was a message tied to it, because it was on my mind. Years later I was living in Hartsel, Colorado and it came to me, triggered by another contact experience where I was 'asked' to prove my identity with a strand of my hair, turned over to Spirit. What I realized was that it was a 'Hello,' and also a security question. "Is it you?" (You being who, exactly?) It has taken me all of that time to figure it out. See how the clouds match my natal birthchart with the two overlapping blue triangles? My cosmic fingerprint.
A very short time later (ie, within less than two weeks of that sighting), a crop circle appeared about two miles from my house. Crop circles are extremely rare in the United States! Here is that photograph... the original newspaper clipping from 1999. The story has since been erased or edited from the public record and Whitefish newspaper, at least on the internet.
Before I go too much further, there is something I posted on Facebook recently, and I want to get it and post it here. Give me a second...
Here it is. From October 10.
"I keep wanting to post about this, I just have not been able to find my words for it. But I have a few new and interesting friends and I am worried. I've revealed bits and pieces of my story over the years here, and also over the last 4-5 months I've felt the need to cut the majority of my Facebook friends due to some very scary interference. Which is when things really got crazy, maybe because I have been setting safer boundaries around myself.
Years ago I started on a personal healing journey that meant unraveling my past on a very deep level. I have had many past life memories, some of them absolutely mind blowing... and I've mentioned some of that here before. As these experiences were happening to me, I also discovered that I had special abilities. In that time, I have ALWAYS used my abilities to safeguard reality and help people. I see this healing work as my life's work in a sense and I have been deeply devoted to it, for the love of my children and my planet, if nothing else. (I say that defensively. In truth it has always been to protect everyone, just 'other people,' but I have actually had people tell me they didn't ask for my help so it was not appreciated; sorry though ... if you are part of my dimension of time space, I guess you are just along for the ride?)
The flip side of that coin is, as I was learning about myself, so have certain 'others.' I now know that I have been watched since I was a child and even before that. Many of these others have turned out to be dangerous, to me and to my family... not to mention everyone and everything else, but it has been part of the whole process of healing, which I think has meant sorting out this energy... the good vs. the bad - we all seem to be in it together and I know that in most cases there are no absolutes.
I have lost a lot of people to this craziness, and it is happening again. I believe that under the new president, the CIA is being carefully dismantled. There is a lot of resistance, as you can probably imagine. These Ops have been following me around in life for a lot of years. They contact my friends and family, or people who don't even know me very well (like, Facebook friends just being made for example, and people in my neighborhood community) and they offer bribes, or tell people all kinds of lies, I don't even know what anymore. To work against me or participate in some kind of game. I tend to think all things happen for a reason. One of the reasons that may be served here is that people who are contacted for this negative purpose will know something about both sides of the picture, eventually ... for those that can maintain some discernment and ask questions of themselves and get to know me as a real person. And also believe what I have said, about myself, without me having to explain it all. I mean, if someone contacted me to work against another person, especially if it was someone I didn't even know, the first thing I would do is ask WHY? (Wouldn't you do the same?? If not, consider your options first.)
I believe that as I have managed to heal my life and disconnect from the people and power structures that have manipulated and controlled me for so long, they are not happy. Their revenge seems to have been to spread rumors and create friction in my world with people that would have otherwise been my friends and allies. So if you've been contacted ... this is a heads up for you. There is whole 'nother side of it all that you might want to consider before you take sides against me. They may just be using you, and I may not be the bad person they say I am. Also, it might just be a test of character, for you.
Namaste."
No offense. Consider that a disclaimer of sorts... so you know what you might be getting yourself into by showing up in my life. I have encountered this interference here on Steemit in the past, as well as several other writing platforms I use. I suppose it is my own fault in a sense, because I have always been so open and willing, even desperate at times, to share my story and connect with other people. The majority of that has been, I think, an S.O.S. for help. I officially started writing on the internet in 1997 with a website called, 'Paranormal Arts' and I've been writing about my crazy life ever since; some of that more recently has even involved advising or informing 'people in power' of things going on on levels of reality that are not currently embraced by the status quo or the media. But I can assure you, that does not make them less real.
I miss my old forum, FreedomCrowsNest, where I wrote there as Bridger. I think my voice was most comfortable there. I have had a harder time finding it here on Steemit but that forum was closed down months ago under suspicious circumstances and put in read only mode. Lucky thing though... my most recent important threads are stuck at the top of the feed! Maybe that was an accident, maybe not.
For interest and further reading, FreedomCrowsNest forum:
http://freedomcrowsnest.wizardofthenorth.ca/viewforum.php?f=1&sid=309d4b591ccc532e28aa6bc477021b3a
Some of my friends might say, Lori, why don't you just move on? Stop mourning the loss of that forum? The truth is, I documented a LOT of amazing things over the years at that place (over 8,000 posts) and I put a lot of love and investment into being a contributor. I would really like to see a miracle, as in, that FCN stay on the internet as a reference, past the end of this year (it has been targeted for closure by the admins, at least according to the last posts there). Again, my voice felt comfortable. One thing that was different was, on a particular thread you could just keep adding dialogue and contributions which is different from creating a specific (and closed ended) article. Maybe that is why I found it so comfortable - it was more like an ongoing, casual conversation.
I think the real challenge for me, is to personify my own humanity, rather than getting hooked on this... functional (ego?) picture of who I am as a magical being that has been affecting this world (as it turns out) for eons. I mean, just be a person with human preferences and feelings and ideas. At the same time, the work I have done to heal myself and the role I have played in all of us coming to this place in time is something I need to be able to own, to complete the picture of being myself. It has been a trick, to balance this.
My Story, a start anyway.
After a relatively normal early life, at age 29 I went though my Saturn Return and my life shifted massively. I began having paranormal experiences on a daily basis. Mind blowing stuff! I think that my husband was a catalyst, this is also when he showed up in my life. I had other friends and even a family member at the time who were also 'different.' Living day to day life from this mental space or perspective became second nature, which I think it always was meant to be.
So ... I never had a sense of any of it being tied to mental illness or schitzophrenia. That came much later. Five years ago to be exact. I had a mental breakdown and was taken to the hospital in an ambulance with symptoms of heart failure, later diagnosed with PTSD and severe anxiety disorder. But the road of finding my way back, although difficult, has been even more amazing I think than those first years of awakening to daily paranormal reality. The silver lining of it started with circumstances in my life suddenly shifting dramatically. My husband had a very sudden change of heart about his comittment to our marriage, and suddenly I was labelled delusional and crazy. This was after about 15 years of living in that other world most of the time and being powerfully validated by him and our children and many of my friends. It didn't help that I was experiencing a mental breakdown... all the years of the healing work (stess, ironically!) catching up to the moment. But in being forced to find my way back from that deep, dark hole I found myself in, I gained strength, self acceptance and self validation I never would have found I think, without it. At least in the context of my current life and the people in it.
Given childhood programming and the current parameters of science, I ALWAYS had trouble believing in what was happening to me, to some extent. So my husband and my writing, and my experiences with my (also very gifted) children validated me. I know I needed the outside input from them to believe my own perceptions, every single day. Once that was taken away it nearly killed me, and I think of the past five years now as a test. The test was, if I had to believe only in myself, to know that it was real, would I?
I was amazed to discover as time went on ... and a lot of struggle, I was in a very bad place five years ago... that yeah, I WAS validated. Proof was everywhere. So much more is possible than we are led and consciously taught to believe. It was about being able to stand on my own and believe in myself totally. To have confidence in my own perceptions without needing daily reality checks and another person's input in order to trust myself. Ha ha. Then it became about how to stand up to bullies and narcissism and stay safe and sane. To be able to protect and nurture the things that matter to me most.
Maybe this is my segue, to start sharing my amazing life stories again.
segue
[sey-gwey, seg-wey]
verb (used without object), segued, segueing.
1. to continue at once with the next musical section or composition (often used as a musical direction).
2. to perform in the manner of the preceding section (used as a musical direction).
3. to make a transition from one thing to another smoothly and without interruption: The conversation segued from travel anecdotes to food.
noun
4. an uninterrupted transition made between one musical section or composition and another.
5. any smooth, uninterrupted transition from one thing to another.
P.S.... I should probably come back and read that chart for today, maybe part 2 of this post?
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All photographs are from my personal collection, other than the clipping from the Whitefish, Montana newspaper (The Daily Inter Lake? That sounds right, looking it up). The charts are from my own software - I use Solar Fire for casting charts. The angel photo is a scan from a Christmas card from years ago.