Love & Relationship Series :: It All Comes Down to Trusting the Self - Are We Rising To The Challenge?

There is so much to say about trust!

@ogc just wrote a post entitled My Lessons With Trust:  You’ve Got to Give It to Get It in her Love and Relationship Series for the @museproject, sharing about trust in her personal love relationship.  That post has inspired me to write a bit about trust myself.

Trusting in life in general can be one of the hardest challenges we face as human beings.

Trusting, no matter how we apply it to life, really all comes down to trusting ourselves.

For we may not have any control over the outside circumstances, and we can never know what the future holds, but we can tune into that which speaks to our soul and act on that which feels to be the most honorable, benevolent, loving and enlightened path.  The question is, can we trust ourselves to do that, and hold ourselves accountable to upholding those high standards when the going gets tough and against all inner fears and outward apearances?

@ogc pointed out how difficult it can be to make choices that

go against the general grain of society.

I too have made some choices that were based on great trust, much to the chagrin of my family, friends, and greater community  Ultimately for me, the choices I made were about following my heart, as well as growth and expansion.  I REALLY challenged myself to step out of my comfort zone and get over some things that were holding me back.  I felt I had no choice but to follow my heart, for at least then, no matter the outcome, I could rest assured that my soul could be at peace for having followed the path of love.

There are some major life circumstances that immediately come to mind when I think of having trusted myself.  I can still feel the intensity of some of my decisions, but am extremely grateful that I took the chance to let go. I continued holding my own hand through the thick of things, closed my eyes and went within, and basically ignored the thoughts and advice of others to the contrary.  I quieted the chatter within my own head that wished to intoxicate me with doubt, and took another breath toward love, steadily leaving behind layers of indoctrination and fear.

I have made many against the grain choices like moving in with my boyfriend at 18 when living together was unacceptable until after marriage, stopping the consumption of meat 25 years ago when eating a vegetarian diet was considered really weird, breastfeeding in public 30 years ago in a upper class Latin culture, and marrying a man 16 years my senior when that too was a rarity in my circles in the ‘80s.  Those things just allowed me to test the waters of the trust I had in myself.  As life has gone on, I’ve made way harder life-changing decisions that tested me to even greater depths.

I’d love to write blogs about all of these subjects (and likely more as they again rise to the surface), as I feel they encompass many underlying core beliefs that stop many of us from experiencing truly being alive.  I feel sharing more in depth about these choices will give us some juicy opportunity for conversation.  If you have any preference on where I begin, leave me a comment, and I’ll be delighted to consider your request.

• Unschooling my children 25 years ago when unschooling was hardly heard of.
  

• Falling in love with a man 24 years my junior and the evolution of our relationship.
  

• Donating my personal family home to @quinneaker for the birth of the @gardenofeden.
  

• Standing up to the system even after being a
  

primary target of a black ops swat raid in my home.

• Questioning my taxes, licenses and other personal governmental control realities.

Not only have the choices I’ve made required great trust,

they required lots of deep breaths, tears, heartbreak,

and lots and lots of introspection.  

I had an ongoing internal dialogue to assure that I was

truly capable of trusting myself on such important matters,

and that what I was doing was for my own evolution

and to follow my soul’s purpose, not for any other hidden agenda.

All of these choices still affect me greatly,

and some still have an outcome that is yet to be determined.

But I can say that through it all, I have gained much insight,

have become more capable of following my heart,

and have much more faith and trust in myself than I knew was possible.

Somehow the Universe keeps bringing forth magnificence in my favor.

I attribute that to having honorable motives and

holding myself accountable to love.

Freely trusting really requires a deep sense of self.

I continue to step up to that challenge.

I would love to dialogue further about trust,

and how impactful it is to our well-being.

In love,

Everlove