A bit of one of my Singularity pieces

More of the piece, as of yet still unfinished:

Another section of that painting Work in Progress

I even got to the point that this much of the canvas was filled:

This section of this same painting seemed such a painting in and of itself, I even cropped and and used it as a finished piece on things and also as a limited edition piece as a digital art piece on my makersplace page with art tied to the blockchain

Having not posted in now three days I am feeling very behind and a bit perplexed.

As some of you may know my year has sort of turned upside down a bit. I had to return from England earlier than planned (was meant to be first of April) due to a family members illness. Add to this not being in my own place still, but trying to continue to steal studio time has left me feeling torn in two directions.

A dichotomy of desires is rather normal for me.

I always seem to be torn in such decisions. When I focus on a bit of my life I am often heading down two paths at once. Today's post was meant to show that my love of more 'finer art paintings' as my Singularity series is, really pulls me in. Yet, rather than merely focusing on that I also have to continue with my more decorative pieces which are popular on things like shirts and housewares.

How I wish sometimes I was an artist with One distinct style that I could merely address each day.

In fact, that was really meant to be this years New Year's Art resolution: One Style, One Focus in art.

My favourite saying I often share is If you want to make God laugh Make a Plan

but I wonder if my own feeling of division is outside sources or merely my own innate subconscious desire for this dichotomy.

In many ways, my love of Steemit both saved my art focus but also created this dichotomy

It was finding Steemit that gave me a renewed joy of being online (I was about to just unplug completely and slip into the background before finding it). Yet, it also sparked in me an old lost love of more larger painterly pieces heavy in narrative, my Singularity work.

Prior to that I was happily creating my animal series in a somewhat unifed style, but becoming annoyed with social media in general. Then finding Steemit gave me renewed hope for the online life and it also sparked this new painting joy.

The problem it has created however is this pull of what I am meant to focus on.

I now find myself feeling more scattered in wondering if I should continue to try and make a place for both avenues of art to discover: The more painterly pseduo realistic world of the Singularity/19th century paintings or the flat and decorative designs of animals and colour? Add to that my own joy of finding black and white drawings again and it's really more of a tertiary problem; If it is even a problem at all.

So, here I find myself making a post about not sure which direction to go, feeling a bit behind and yet finding it hard to go forward as too many paths appear there.

I wonder, sometimes, if online Life is part of that problem.

It both opens things up for us and gives us great opportunities as artists to both connect with people as well as clients, yet it also gives us a sort of anxious feeling that is very much programmed into it.

There is no doubt that social media is designed to give a carrot on a string feeling.

It is openly talked about now in media how Facebook and their ilk purposely planned it to be that way. It is interesting that this only 'came out' now that we are all far into it to really reconsider any other way.

I don't want to seem to be complaining about a thing that has given me a platform to sell art and meet other wonderful artists.

But, as someone who always seems to be pulled in two directions I seem to be more susceptible to it of late.

I suppose I am longing for a streamline way of Thought and Action.

A more laser focused approach to creating and displaying that would fit more neatly into a day.

If anyone has any ideas how to go about finding that, please give me a hint.

Until then, I'll have to deal with unfinished paintings and random decorative pieces interjected with black and white drawings. Even this pull of things has left my other social media platforms wanting as I am not 'keeping up' as I am meant to, again

the "carrot on a stick" or the "hamster wheel" we all find ourselves on.

I hope your day is more focused than mine and that you can find