Tonight I am celebrating my preliminary touchdown. First leg of my insane overhours-marathon has just come to an end after what felt like an eternity full of novel and profoundly mundane experiences deep inside the matrix structure that - despite its charms and cute attempts of wanting to remain the operating standard for our society it's just a giant hoax. A ridiculous one at that. Artificially stalled development just because we won't make the change to something more sensible. Well, it has been decided and I am making that change these days though I am not certain what it will look like. And the matrix has become this weird ally in getting me to my new epicenter.
I see many of the avenues that could be walked, I chose not to walk them all. And I trust that. Some avenues I do walk, and with the ones I do I am rather satisfied, especially after such a freakin' dash through the system these past months and the last 30 days especially.
My apartment is all but empty - maybe one or two days of housework left to pack my last things together, get some paint on the walls and hand over the keys, then be off to move in with a good friend for the summer RENT FREE and with many priceless experiences to be had, expecting to make lots of music and preparing for my larger travel leg, main aim of this transition phase in my life carrying me where I ultimately need to be for what's coming. My life has become the long-overdue whirlwind I feel I was secretly longing for. And it's happening.
It's been a truly insane month, everything cut back to nonexistence exxcept for matrix hours put on full throttle that would make workaholic executives blush. Didn't even get to Steem for more than a week with working hours and cutting off my old internet connection at my apartment.
And now that I am off to a good 14 days of vacation and setting up at a new place I can hardly believe it. No need to believe anything, it's my time now! Your move ego, your freakin' move - AWESOME!
Lots of novel floor lessons to come my way for sure as well in mere days, and all the focus back to my own story and the floor family, the magic that has become ever-present even in the most common experiences far from psy floors, and a few major longterm hangups to work on and be challenged by, as every summer. What an exciting year, it has been incredibly transformative and it feels like I am finally graduating and getting ready to take my... rightful place in this cosmos within human society. Whatever that means. Too much has changed to allow me to stay in too similar of a mode compared to past years. Really proud I am shaking it all up so mightily and with a smile at that.
Universe already pumping out hints everywhere and now I will take a few days to find my center again, after the move is complete. Refocus on the spiritual aim, and celebrate with my friends barefoot on the floor til my legs won't carry me anymore and I remember why I chose to take the plunge in the first place: Because something big is waiting for me. Somewhere. Somehow.
Went to my first tiny psy party last weekend, stayed for mere hours because matrix commitments, but it felt glorious and just like I remember. Took me mere moments to find back to my essence on the floor. I can't wait to be out on festival mode, even if it's going to be a far smaller festival circuit this year than these past years I feel more ready than ever.
Ego, universe, intuition - let's party, time for some magic potion and the witnessing of the happening in cheering- and cherish- mode! I am so ready, not sure if I've ever been this ready. No exaggerration...
And since my mind has almost forgotten among all this shifting of the outer I'll keep reminding myself 'til I have internalized it: It's my time now! <3 <3
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