After reading the poem compilation by @rensoul17, I was inspired to take part in this Steemit Vision Quest as well, and am posting this poem in response to hers.
This was written when I was in a period of deep introspection, working back through issues that had confronted me throughout my life; but it was more an intellectual exercise than existential, as I've had ample evidence throughout my life that angels not only exist, but are actively helping me in every facet of my life, as is God.
Similarly, though I question in the poem whether I should believe in love, that question had also been answered for me, as Marek and I had already been together for a year and a half when this was written.
But, having found the love I had sought for so long, in no way erased the memories of what it was like before I had it in my own life, and what it was like when I lost the love that I hadn't even realized I had become so reliant upon in defining my own inner being.
Maybe I Don't Believe in Angels
I've heard stories about angels
God's messengers sent
to help all mankind
Coincidences that aren't
Miracles in the every day
I hope one day to find
Maybe I don't believe in angels
but a part of me prays
that angels believe in me
I've heard stories about love
Finding your soulmate
A love for all time
But today I'm torn and rent
and the love I thought I knew
has disappeared to mist
Maybe I don't believe in love
but a part of me prays
that love believes in me
I've heard stories about God
The Oneness of spirit
That envelops your soul
but tonight I'm aloneness
sleeping in a hole in the void
without a soul who cares
Maybe I don't believe in God
but a part of me prays
that God believes in me
18Jan2008
Cori MacNaughton
All words and images are my own.
This photo was taken on a visit with friends in NYC, in April 2016, and was taken with my LG V10 Android phone.
The image itself is the reflection of light through my wine glass, which struck all of us present as a sign, particularly since our friend has been dealing with cancer for over six years.
Calling all angels: my prayers, as always, are for Maciek's complete healing, and his and his family's highest and best good. Thank you, and blessings to everyone, everywhere.
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