THOUGHTS ON WRITING AND EVOLVING
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As you may or may not know, the @gardenofeden land is for sale to generate the funds needed for an even grander version of this life we live in love, and to share it with many others.
@saramiller and I are presently applying our focused energy toward liquidating some of our assets, cleaning, clearing, organizing, packing and making upgrades to the house. For me this is metaphorically symbolic of what I’m doing inside of myself. I’m digging out the old stuff way down deep, purging, clearing my energy, and making myself anew. I’m feeling deeply the changes within and standing in gratitude everyday for the experience of these times where change is embraced and newness flows in.
There are so many things I’m sharing in this blog that I have never shared before. Some of it feels freakin’ scary to put out there, especially on social media, but I’m breathing deeply and letting it go, knowing that holding on may only hold me back. Though I have intended to write about these past 12+ years with Quinn and the awakenings and awarenesses I have gained, the experiences have been too potent and too plentiful, and me too full to begin.
Oh how I wished I had been writing about this all along, though I know right now is the perfect time, because it’s happening. I didn’t intend to begin writing this story right now, or I may have given it more thought or considered how I would organize the massive amount of information and wisdom I’ve gained. I simply wrote one post, then there were two, now twenty. The blog (or is it a book?) is organizing itself and what comes next just appears. Like magic, really!
What I tell you may be quite controversial, may provoke you to squirm, to raise your eyebrow, tell your friends, or to judge me. (Remember that things are not always as they seem, but appear based on one’s own ideas and the veil through which one sees.) And simultaneously may warm your heart, bring you to tears, inspire you to love more, or challenge you to stand in the pura-fire of your own existence and reach for your own truth.
It can be incredibly painful to look at oneself, but unless we do, we will continue to repeat the same patterns, not knowing how to break the cycle of the hamster wheel we are on, perhaps until we’re dead--if we aren’t already!
We can’t make changes until we realize we have changes to make, and are willing to really look at things instead of running away, blaming others for our problems, or being too busy to address them.
Once we see, we cannot unsee, we can only hide and go numb again, or be brave and be accountable to ourselves for change.
These are the moments on which our lives are built.
These are the moments that can help us rise above the difficult times.
These are the moments that eventually can help us find our peace.
We have to do our own inner work.
My hopes in writing this blog are that it helps us all stretch and expand, to reach greater potential within ourselves and our relationships, and that it brings us closer to the love that we really are.
I believe I am here on this planet to experience unconditional love--everything else is a means to that end, or is a distraction. I intend to continue fine tuning myself to truly and intimately know this juicy eternal love. What @quinneaker has shared with me is priceless...OMG how will I ever repay him? I hope to find some words to do it justice and pay forward this loving energy of awakening.
Thank you for reading my blog and for
taking this journey into the abyss with me.
I’m super grateful that you are here.
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@saramiller is also writing a blog - A True History of the Garden of Eden. She has some real REAL REALNESS to share in her clever way with words. It’s an incredible story on the other end of the spectrum from mine (at least as it has started). Powerful and ohhhhh so worth a read!
I have taken literally tens of thousands of photographs of Quinn over time. He became one of my favorite subjects as I was inspired to capture his essence through my lens. I’ve borrowed a few photos of Quinn when he was younger for the beginning of this blog, the rest of them I took myself. People have remarked about how amazing my photos of him are. It really isn’t about my talent at all, I’ve simply encoded the pictures with love!
Go with me on the journey toward Unconditional Love!
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